Strapless

she had everything I wanted
most of all his notice
I saw him watching
like he used to watch me
when I was her age

perfect arse in her black Levis
full red lips with no make up
… that was my trick

one more button loose
showing off what I never had
his eyes followed them as she passed
and he doesn’t even go for breasts
or maybe just not my paltry pair

she sat tuning her viola
right in front of him
… I was occupied elsewhere

I remember when that was my seat
now, I couldn’t be further away
damn European orchestras
I’ll take an American band any day
just to be where I belong

he liked to watch my back
sultry nights in the pit
… when I went strapless

he was mine then
had his total attention
now he window shops
blond hair, blue eyes
twenty, could be his daughter

our daughter, if I’d had my way
look, but don’t touch
… touch me instead

I know he looks still
but not like that
damn drooling bugger
where did I go wrong?
we’re ancient history

ancient, yes, a passing fancy, she
too old for that babe, I remind him,
… not in so many words

she’s there now
but I still hold the cards
he knows where to find me
all I have to do is turn around
I wore my strapless tonight

naked

it’s just me you get today
sex-starved and a raving lunatic
naked as i slept last night
some days i just can’t put anything on
until noon when i snap out of this funk

it’s just me and my laptop
warm against the skin of my thighs
my window on the outside world
and your window into my soul
that’s you right there between my legs
enjoy it while it lasts

right now i don’t care whether you are man or woman
you are right where i want you
cuddled up with me in my bed

but it’s just me you are getting
no punctuation or caps
and just the stream that’s in my head
a stream that’s raging white water right now
boiling
threatening to take us under
yes you and me together

i’m on the shelf now
on the shelf that I put up with him yesterday
watching him with her sleeping in
he brushed up against me
several times while she watched us
not seeing the tide that was approaching its crest

midnight
he kissed me a happy new year
on the cheek dangerously close to my lips
i don’t think she saw my tongue that slipped out playfully
or the angry look that burned in his eyes
it was too dark
but i knew i had to leave or i would explode

erupt as i am now
with you my reader
my lover
in the only way i can
to stay sane
with you
naked

you at my fingertips
accepting you
as you accept me
bare unfettered
jumping off the shelf
into your arms
i love you dear reader
i’m yours